New Year's Resolutions

I'm doing this a month early because I will so busy during the days closer to the new year that I will not really be thinking about this, and also because if the world ends soon (because that's likely lololol), I feel like I want to have at least one thing done ahead of time.

SO! Here we go!

1) Utilize the entirety of what I have been given, not just what is easy to find or obvious to use.
The foremost example would be pertaining to my clothing. Squandered wardrobe potential, thy name is Julia. I have assloads of clothing, like, assloads, and I wear maybe 1/5 of it, and it's the same story when it comes to my shoes. I could be such a little hip trend setter, yet I am happy wearing v-necks and leggings 99.9% of the time. I should change that and stand out more, because having multi-colored hair is simply not enough. However, this philosophy can be applied to many aspects of my life and I should follow it more closely in the following months.

2) Actively make the world better.
I'm not entirely sure how to do this on a large scale, but after watching this extremely graphic video about the current conflict in Syria, things are a bit more in perspective. My main priorities being mostly self-serving, and while likely remain so, but in parallel to those priorities, I should create a new set that focuses and paying it forward. I should make more of an effort to remember the world around me by donating to a charity or something, because simple awareness is not enough; it is the change that matters.

3) Carefully regulate new emotional investments.
Previously standing emotional investments are obviously not included because there is not much I can do about things that I have already done *cough falling in love during the year before I move across the country cough* But, having learned my lesson, I must say that I need to have better control and a better eye towards the rational future when it comes to putting my emotions into any person or endeavor. I need to think about it SUPER CAREFULLY before I decide to fall in love with anyone or anything else.

4) Be pleasantly vicious.
This year has been a constant pendulum between extreme fake happiness and not even trying to fake it with people. I think being free of GHS and my fast food job will greatly increase the amount of time that I can spend actually being my happy AND vicious self. When people aren't pissing me off beyond reason or forcing me to act like a Miss America candidate, I tend to be generally nice and humorous about my judgmental nature, despite the fact that I make a lot of very venomous comments. I'm like a very sweet breed of bitch. I miss feeling like that all the time.

5) Prioritize according to need, not want.
This year, due to extreme stress and my general desire to be able to have my cake and eat it to, I've been prioritizing doing the things I want to do over the things that I need to do. This has resulted in late assignments, procrastination, and an increase in stress following the short amount of fun. Obviously, the logical thing to do is to get the things that I need to get done done before I go do the things that I want to do. If it comes to choosing one or the other, I need to choose the requirement more often than the desire.

6) Live for me. 
Once all of my college applications are in and it is confirmed that I will actually be able to graduate, I plan to stop pretending to care about certain things that I am only pretending to care about for the explicit purposes mentioned. Seriously. I need to go back to doing things that I enjoy during my free time. While this resolution may seem to conflict with the previous one, I prefer to think about it as finding a balance between fulfilling responsibilities to others and responsibilities to myself.


I suppose I'll see how these play out.


Julia