So today was not a fantastical summer adventure like most of these days are. I woke up and realized that I had slept in my contacts, so I got to wear my glasses today, which felt wierd. Plus I didn't wear my usual shit-load of make-up, so I just kinda felt ugly when I realized I have 3 very obvious zits on my cheek. I hate feeling ugly.
In improv I gave my ex the most awkwardtastic hug EVAR. It was probably painful to watch... and probably invalidated all of the flirting that had gone on previously. To make matters worse, there's this girl that I know he's kinda tight with and every time he sees her they instantly are enthralled in this amazing conversation and for some reason this makes my insides twist. Her pretty eyes and giant boobs don't help.
Goddammit, I don't know which I should be more concerned about, the fact that he is flirting with another girl or the fact that I care. I mean, we did date, and we had a little "thing" back in March, and we've had some pretty deep conversations. The only thing we haven't done is kiss, and I don't know if I even want to try to do that now... ugh. After tomorrow, I probably won't see him for forever so what does it matter anyway?
And just to make my day fantastic, my phone got run-over. I was running across a highway and I dropped it, then by the time I had managed to go back and pick it up, the back was all mangled and the speaker was shot. The screen's pretty ok though, and I can still text, so I guess that's good. But being a little poor kid in Hicktown, I probably won't be getting a new one anytime soon.
Fuck my life today :P
Oh MAN! The next day (that would be today) had better be better for you or Imma have to go yell at god or something...lol
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel about the feeling ugly thing, it sucks and then you don't have confidence to do what you should do and it just makes the day bad.
Sorry about your ex...I think he can...Die? Yea, maybe Idk, but I know you'll stay strong. You can't let a guy get you down, they aren't worth it.
And about your phone, Jesus that's really unlucky! Sorry babe, at least the screen still works, right?
Haha try and be positive. If there's one thing I've learned it's that you can change your mood in a second, it's hard as hell but it's good practice. =)
Have a better day today, and I'll see you Saturday, we still need to figure out a time...
Love you.
that's.. pretty bad. :/
ReplyDeletei mean, you shouldn't worry about being ugly, cause i can tell from your profile picture thing that you're gorgeous.