In Colorado, every year between the dead of winter and the Warmth of spring there's this shitty transitional period when the weather doesn't quite know what to do with itself. Everything's cold and grey and the sun's never out, but there's no snow.
What little remains from the blizzards just sits on the ground unable to melt and everything feels so stationary. It's like just being in a physical and emotional rut for a few months. I hate it.
I went to two parties last night. The first was crazy with loud music and dancing, it was like a garage rave. I knew no one and it was such a sensory overload that I dragged my friend to the other party, which was so laid back that it was boring.
I feel like yesterday amounted to nothing. Usually, after a night out, I feel like I've gained something, be it new friends or funny memories or whatever, but today I feel like there was nothing. Like I just killed time to watch it die.
School feels unfulfilling, love is stupid, and now even parties are blah. I need to find some way to add spice back into my life before it becomes as grey as the world around me.
Blahhh.
Julia
Take up knitting! Just kidding.
ReplyDeleteBut don't worry. There's always a calm before a storm, so this lull only means that awesome is just around the corner.