Tuesday, April 10, 2012

A Vote Of Confidence...?

I am fairly blunt with you guys about the fact that I am an independent kiddo who not only embraces, but revels in her own sexuality. I like sex. It's a thing that I acknowledge, unlike my peers who either fear it, secretly have it with far too many people, or haven't realized their own propensities towards it yet.

That's not to say I am super slut who goes around flaunting and fucking. That is not the case at all; I am simply open about the subject should it pop up in conversation.

That in mind, when I think about guys, I tend to categorize them into two groups: Boys Who Want To Have Sex With Me, and Boys Who Want To Have A Relationship With Me.

In recent weeks, the already substantial list of Boys Who Want To Have Sex With Me has grown considerably, now including many reappearing acronym-ified boys, two warring 23 year-olds (which is a situation that I don't really know what to do with), and an array of acquaintances whom I have been texting sporadically since Caffeine.

To be sought after in this manner is quite nice and is definitely a vote of confidence in a time of need for it. 

The list of Boys Who Want A Relationship With Me is far shorter, so short, in fact, that there is not a single name on it. Don't color me too disappointed; I prefer being independent to being codependent. However, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm meant to have any relationships at all. 

Honestly, casual sex is pretty much floating my boat these days. [Despite being in love totally fucked, that is; but that's a situation which must marinate and mature on its own before I will be ready to elaborate upon it]

Just what I've been thinking about lately...
Also, I think I'm beginning to overuse semicolons. Sorry about that.

Julia
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1 comment:

  1. Marie Rossi4/11/12, 1:35 AM

    I don't understand why, but I like joking about sex and I'm fine with talking about it even though I'm absolutely terrified of the idea of actually doing it. And you remind me a bit of my mom. (Not in a bad way.) When she talks to my sister about having a boyfriend, she'd always remind her to practice safe sex even though my sister's already made up her mind that she's going to stay a virgin until she gets married. Then my mom will say "sex is gooooood" as if she's climaxing right there on the couch (which, in my opinion, is something we're not really supposed to hear).

    Oh, hey we both use lists on guys! Except mine are all empty. Even the list of Boys I Know in Real Life. I'll die a virgin, I suppose. Good for you for being, er.. wanted (?) :D I guess that means you're pretty (good in bed).

    Kudos to you for knowing how to use semicolons! I only use those when my finger slips and I accidentally type I;m instead of I'm.

    Long comment is long.

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