Alright, hiatus over, one week was good enough for me.
Now that my stupid musical is done, I have a lot more time to do things so I feel less like violently beating every person I talk to. Well, slightly less. But, since I've decided that sitting on a couch and talking to a PhD isn't really helping things, I think I must inevitably come back to blogging. The sad truth is that I feel more comfortable sharing my occasionally deeply twisted inner shit with strangers on the internet than with a licensed therapist. Oh well.
My days have boiled down to a good day/bad day binary (with the inclusion of super good days and horrible days, akin to the system used by Christopher in "The Mysterious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime") The ratio of good days to bad days has been increasing, so I think that the addition of several hours of free time to my life every day is helping me to not act so aggressively so often. Granted, there are still bad days, when I don't eat and smoke too much and make brutal remarks constantly, but I haven't had one all week.
Also, I am working a fuck ton, so I'm perpetually exhausted and have less energy to be depressed. I am also freaking the fuck out over my college applications and trying desperately to hold my shit together at school which has resulted in my being too preoccupied with my academic fate to give my emotions any time to run wild. I am also dealing with car issues (which I will elaborate upon at a later date) which are just distracting. On top of all of this, I am pretty sure that either my uterus or appendix has gone rogue and is trying to escape my body by punching through the skin of my lower abdomen, and despite two doctor visits this week, I have no idea what is going on down there and they haven't even given me any painkillers.
Wow, I'm three paragraphs in and I haven't even gotten to the point of this post.
This is the point: This is my 500th post!
In celebration, I am thinking I will either do a video blog or a Q&A or something as my 501th post because this one has ended up being very update-y. So, please, if you care to, leave a comment with either questions or suggestions, and I'll get my shit together and make my 501th post an egotistical masterpiece.
I have to go take 40 pages of psychology notes now. Glory.
At least I have a cute boyfriend who lets me steal his t shirts. I don't think I've slept in my own clothing for months now...
ANYWAY. Coming soon to this blog:
-Halloween rave pictures (I'm dressing up as Pikachu)
-Collegiate stress
-Hair dye adventures
-Possibly another short story?
Oh yeah, get stoked.
Julia
i feel ya, whenever i tell myself i'm done with my blog, i'm gonna leave a final fuck-the-world post and never return, that lasts about a day, and after a good night's sleep, i get the blog itch again...
ReplyDeleteHoly carp, 500 posts? Way to go!
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel about getting whacked with the triple-headed hammer of college apps, school work, and car trouble. Oops, quadruple-headed, because you can't forget a job!
I'm really glad your stress levels have gone down and you're back to blogging.
I caught up on your last two or three posts just a minute ago. I'm sorry if I offended you by commenting on that Facebook status. It's a sensitive topic for a lot of people, and I felt the need to stand up for what I believe but also really hope I didn't come off as preachy or obnoxious or anything.
ReplyDeleteBut I do admire your personality. The world needs more moxy.
And congrats on your 500th post!! I guess that's a good time to say that even though I haven't been commenting lately I still really love your blog and am glad you came back from your hiatus.
Sorry things are overwhelming, though.
Also, I wish I had a cute boyfriend who gave me shirts. Maybe one day.
Hope things get better for you! Bye!