Inches

I got a speeding ticket today. Even though the penalty on the ticket is small, I don't have enough points to spare and it's very likely that I'm going to lose my driver's license. My education, my job, my relationship, and my sanity all depend upon my ability to transport myself. I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't rely on my parents to drive me, but I don't want to burden my friends.

I pleaded with the cop, explaining that I was just trying to get to school, that I was momentarily not paying attention, that I didn't mean to go the measly 12 mph over that I was going. Evidently, sympathy was not gotten.

How am I supposed to get into Harvard if I can't get to class? How am I supposed to pay for food if I can't get to work? How am I supposed to remain functional at all if I can't get to therapy? My life has literally just been torn apart, and it's all because I wasn't paying attention. At least with terminal diseases, it's not your fault.

I can't do this anymore... Why do I do this?



Julia