First Draft

A few days ago, while I was walking around Boulder with my friend, we were discussing our recent lives in a very detacthed manner. I love my friend because she's so blatantly unemotional that I can tell her about heartbreak and she'll regard it the way I do: "Oh, that sucks.." and then we move the fuck onward with our lives.
But she mentioned her ex, so I only thought it appropriate to bring up mine.

Ex, the last actual relationship I had, hasn't spoken to me in about 9 months, save the occasional 'like' of a Facebook status or off-handed comment on one. Yes, this is the same Ex to whom I wrote a very angry letter to on this blog shortly after I broke up with him (don't go digging for that, it's not pretty).

The thing is, he's the only guy I've dated whom I haven't kept in touch with, and this bothers me to no end. It's possibly because he was basically the best boyfriend I've ever had: just as heartless as I, listened to obscure indie, enjoyed playing his saxaphone for money, vegetrarian, liked burritos and feodoras. We were perfect for each other and we knew it, but I had to be stupid and *poof* went that relationship...

Now normally, I'm not the type who clings to the past like it's on sale at Macy's, however, my friends have noticed that whenever we're walking around Boulder, I point at places he used to take me, and tell the cute stories of our time there. My friends either find this adorably sentimental in a 'The Notebook' sort of way, or they find it creepy and obnoxious that I get misty-eyed about pizza parlors.

So yesterday my friend proposed a solution, which was to reach out to him and see if he wanted to hang out and catch up. Of course, I'd be elated to even talk to him again, let alone get coffee and reminisse, but I don't want him to think it's weird (as in restraining-order weird) that I'm suddenly talking to him again, or even wanting to see him again.

Point of clarification: I don't necessarily want to date him again. If we hang out and I remember why I dumped his ass, then that's fine. I just need some fucking closure here!

Anyway, few and foreign followers, I need advice!!
Should I reach out and hope it leads somewhere positive, or just man up and restrain myself from wallowing in the past?


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Julia