Just a warning, this post is kind of all over the place, so brace yourself.
Yesterday I was stuck sitting in a hallway in my school for 10 hours due to a speech tournament. My job was to make sure kids weren't going where they weren't supposed to, but none of them did because no one was even on that side of the school anyway. So my hallway became the chill-out spot for all of my buddies with similar duties, because they were just as bored as I was.
Excluding makeing out on the backs of tournament busses or in unused art rooms (those stories are for another time), speech and debate kids are fairly well-behaved and aren't exactly adventurous when it comes to being in new schools, so none of us had anything to do.
Everyone sort of congregated in my hallway and we played Never Have I Ever and Egyptian Rat Slap, which is this intense card game that involves slapping the other peoples' hands.
After the tournament had wrapped up, we all went to Red Robin as usual, and this freshman, let's call him Little Novice, shyly asked if he could sit next to me. I turned and said "Uh, No." in the bitchiest voice I could. Then I grinned and pulled out the chair for him, and he sat down next to me looking confused. I said I was joking around and of course he could sit next to me, and when I went to give him a hug, he kissed me on the cheek. It was one of those hurried, nervous, probably-had-been-planning-that-all-day kisses on the cheek. Can you say AWWWWWW!!! I'm flattered, but I feel badly for the kid, because I don't want to give him false hope.
We interrupt this broadcast for a conceited mini-rant:
Why, God, why is it that the only person who is even remotely interested in me is an under-developed, albeit puppy-dog cute, immature freshman? Am I really that unattractive? I mean, if I am, I can work on that. But I'm seriously going into like, withdrawl from male affection. Not to sound like an unrelenting sex fiend or something, honest. It's just, after breaking it off with Mwb, I have no where to put my heart. It's getting to the point where I'm starting to convince myself that I like certain people because I feel as if I need to like someone right now, even though I don't and that's stupid. I mean, I really don't need a boyfriend, I am the funnest single person I know, because I don't sit around mourning my lack of a guy.
But dear God, why does no one want to be with me? Is it my blunt commentary? My overly bleached hair? The fact that I make more 'that's what she said' jokes than most of my friends? Do guys just not like short girls? I hate that I'm starting to randomly misplace my affections, just so that I have feelings for someone. What is wrong with the world? Do I only appeal to douchey, sex-obsessed boys who live half an hour away? GAAAHHHH!! SOMEONE TELL ME THEY LIKE ME, GODDAMMIT!
Ok, conceited mini-rant over. Apologies for the interruption.
Anyway, finals week is this week, but I'm not too concerned, and I get to miss Friday to go to Cheyenne, Wyoming, for a big tournament, so hopefully life will seem better. I'm definitely looking forward to 2.5 weeks of no school.
Boom Sacka-de-Lacka (the sound that Mitchell Davis makes)
Julia
P to the S: Out of the blue, my mother (who I'm really not close with) brought me back a steak with all the trimmings for dinner. Should I be concerned at this random display of maternal love? I'm very weirded out...
Anyway, have a tolerable Monday.
Peace.
jul... after i had my brake up with BB (ill tell you the acrimony another time)
ReplyDeletei started going in to the same withdrawal. only hook ups and make out dident do jack shit for me... thay still don't.
it sucks. so i understand
as to why no one is wanting to be with you romantically.. to hell if i know. its the same question i ask my self and its the same question so Meany others do as well...
women be bitches men be assholes... but nether will ever make seance to eater other
Awwww, that's sweet, both to the freshman and the dinner from mom. I would say don't be suspicious of it, just go with it.
ReplyDeleteI only speak for myself when I say that when I was that age, I was SOOO shy. Now that I have grown both up and out of that shell, I kind of regret not taking more chances. That was sweet of him and glad you are flattered by the gesture.
All men aren't like that, just the majority. Even the ones who seem nice can be a-holes after you get to know them.
Also, shorter woman are awesome. Keep your spirit up. :)
Maybe if you date the freshman, at least for a while, he'll eventually have a growth spurt and turn into this gigantic, sexy JV lacross player--and he'll remember that you dated him when he was tiny and under-developed. That worked out with me and Haviland Morris in her senior year.
ReplyDeleteLots of guys are probably into you--it's just that they're too intimidated by your good looks and sweet disposition to approach you.
BAH, EXAMS! I got so stressed out about English, I didn't even study. I just wrote "Fuck you" on the cover of the exam sheet and slept for the rest of the exam period.
Thanks Halden <3
ReplyDeleteRezeden, thanks too. Sorry about the freakout.
Chris, I can't date the kid, it'd be like throwing him into a lion pit when he's only just learned how to play with kittens. And don't you dare make that pussy joke you're thinking of lol