We interrupt your regularly scheduled programming of the awkwardly written and lovingly titled "Hora Mortis Nostrae" to bring you yet another quick update on my ridiculous life and a blogging survey named Nicolai (don't ask, I didn't name it) as well as another plea for advice. So here goes.
Update:
I have spent so much time with Waywardsoulboy this week that it's beginning to be a tad ridiculous. We keep staying up all night talking, and then I'll go home for sleep and a shower, and then we'll go off and live our own lives for a few hours, and then we'll be right back in his basement, listening to 70's rock on vinyl and discussing the puzzles of the universe.
I took your advice, and went with the flow. What may have simply been a deep friendship is now, most definitely, a romance. I know this because I found out today that Wsb is a fantastic kisser, as well as an aggressively passionate fuck (which is always nice, because I hate boys who are boring in bed) and well, now we're both pretty sure that we have surpassed simple friendship.
It's an infatuation, but we both know that in 3 weeks, he'll be back in boarding school on the other side of the world in Hampshire and I'll be here in Hicktown smoking cigarettes and being devious. It's all very (500) Days of Summer, in that we both know it's a relationship now but we refuse to call it one and are going to continue to stick with "just friends".
Advice Plea:
Few and foreign followers, I ask you, am I setting my self up for absolute disaster here? Or am I simply capitalizing upon the potential for a summer romance that isn't a romance? Am in too deep here? Is 3 weeks of absolute bliss worth the inevitable emotional hardship of knowing that he's going to be beyond reach for 9 months? Help!
Nicolai:
1) Please state your name for the record?
Julia, nice to meet you there Nicolai.
2) If you were a penguin, on the other hand, what do you think your name would be? Hypothetically speaking, of course.
Alexander Winslow IV
3) Would you consider your ears to be smaller than average, average, larger than average, or freakishly large?
smaller than average
4) Are you more of a Beatles or an Elvis fan? (If you answer the latter, please proceed to go set yourself on fire and then die in a hole.)
I enjoy them both equally, but I don't have any Elvis on vinyl...
5) Have you ever killed anyone? If so, did you do it with your bare hands?
Nope, nah.
6) If you could use any fruit to describe the size and shape of your head, what fruit would you use?
Passionfruit. Complete with the spikes.
7) Is there any famous person you'd go gay for? Please state their name. This question is, of course, purely for academic purposes.
Oh Nicolai, you raunchy survey. Most likely, Natalie Portman.
8) If you had the choice, would you rather go to space, meet Paul McCartney, scuba dive in the Pacific Ocean, or sleep with Carmen Electra?
Meet Paul McCartney, I've already slept with Carmen Electra... In space, while scuba diving.
9) How long have you had your blog? What made you start one?
A year and some change I believe. Cassi had one, so I wanted one too...
10) What is your weirdest phobia?
I have a really sever fear of lying down in bathtubs. Like, standing in one to take a shower is totally fine, but laying down in one is kind of scary.
11) Do you believe in God?
It depends on the weather.
12) If you could start a collab. blog with any four bloggers, which ones would you do it with?
Hmm. Christopher, Eeshie, Ross, and the chick who writes Lemons Don't Make Lemonade. Y'all seem like witty people.
13) If you were trapped on a desert island with the same four bloggers you mentioned in the last question, which one would you eat first? With which one would you procreate?
I'd probably eat Christopher... I mean, there can only be one blonde on the island. And I'd procreate with everyone else, cuz, I mean, I couldn't just pick one!
14) What's your favourite 80's movie?
The Breakfast Club
15) What kind of music do you listen to?
Nicolai, the question should be "What kind of music DON'T you listen to?". Because I listen to everything, execpt I dislike country and improvisational jazz.
16) Imagine that you open your bedroom closet one day and suddenly a portal opens up. You can't see what is at the end of the portal, but there is a totoro inside it motioning you to follow him. Would you go inside, even if it might mean you'll never come back?
FUCK. YES.
17) If you're a woman, do you find facial hair on men attractive? If you're a man, do you find facial hair on woman attractive?
No.
18) Do you like babies?
Not particularly. I mean they're cute, but they're very labor-intensive and loud. Who needs em', you know?
19) What's the most violent thing you've ever done to an inanimate object?
I threw my phone off the roof of a parking garage once.
20) What's the most embarrassing thing that's ever happened to you?
Hmm. My voice cracked while I was singing a solo at school assembly once. That wasn't so fun..
21) Do you think the world will end in 2012?
If it does, I'm throwing the party :D
22) Have you enjoyed this survey? Be honest, now.
Yes, Nicolai, very much.
Survey from: The Nerd Archives Go read it and give Christopher some love!
Anyway. I hope you've all had lovely days.
Julia
If you plan on anything long term then I think you'll be disappointed. You said yourself you know that he's leaving soonish, so if you're expecting anything significant and long lasting, I think you'll be setting yourself up for some hurt.
ReplyDeleteSince you pretty much know for a fact that he is leaving, I reckon you'll just have to accept that it's bound to end sooner rather than later, even if what you're feeling for him is more than what you'd feel for a casual fling.
Life's a bitch, ay.
Stranger things have happened. I'm besotted with a girl who lives in Boston, and I'm just ouside of London. Maybe I'm an idealistic sad git, but maybe you are too. If anything, at least you'll have a holiday home ;)
ReplyDeleteAlso, can I come to your end-of-world 2012 party? Cigarettes are so much cheaper in the US than over here :) x