I didn't qualify for state. As soon as they called the last name in my event during the announcements, and it wasn't mine, everyone on my team said "whaaaaat???" all at the same time. It was nice to know that they shared the same sentiment that was going through my head.
My ego is not that big, honestly, but I have placed consistently all season. I have placed above many of the people who qualified numerous times. I have made judges cry (which, believe it or not, is a good thing in dramatic interp) and my competitors feel inferior the second that I've stepped into a round.
But today I didn't even make the alternate spot.
I don't know what happened. I thought I had been doing as well as I usually do, but when I got my ballots back, the highest ranking I received was a 2.
The worst part is that all of my friends, even Lionboy, who is only on his first year on the team, qualified. I'm super proud and happy for him, but it still sucks.
I've been chain smoking and driving around back roads and not even a trip to Pearl Street could cheer me up.
I'm going to watch obscure foreign films on Netflix until I fall asleep and this disappointing day can just be over with.
Julia
Yeah. I completely understand, because I got cockblocked out of going to state in art and it sucked. It sucked the most because everyone kept asking me "Why didn't they give you a higher score?"
ReplyDeleteAnd all I could do was shake my head and cry. Like a baby.
But I did some yoga, some... recreational activities, and remembered that I was awesome.
So. Just remember that you're awesome. Life, not competitions and state qualifications can attest to that.
Ugh. That sucks. I'm really sorry.
ReplyDeleteJust remember, though, that many of the best artists of history have been under-appreciated or scorned by their peers and rejected by society. Just because those judges couldn't appreciate you doesn't mean you aren't any good.
I know it's disappointing, though, and I hope you feel better soon.
Oh man. That is really messed up. And I totally get what you mean about how it feels when your less-than-qualified friends pick up while you drop...I definitely get what you mean.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry :(
Yeah, don't stress about it. All tournaments, there's always bullshit judges, you know? I don't know if Coloradians have a word for it, but here in New York, we call it being "judgefucked." It's a fitting term.
My friend got a perfect 30 one round and STILL lost. It was terrible.
Don't worry. You know you deserve it, your team knows you deserve it. You'll beat their asses next time!